By +Jeanne Takenaka @JeanneTakenaka
My Five Minute Friday prompt this week is—GOOD. This largely unedited “rough draft” form of writing stretches this perfectionist, in the best of ways. I write for five minutes on a given topic. If you’re interested in learning more about 5-Minute Fridays, check out our hostess, Kate Motaung’s site. Or, click on the link at the bottom of this post. As you read my simpler Friday posts, I hope you’ll join in the conversation!
Most of my life, I’ve struggled with not being “good enough.”
Good enough to be on a worship team.
Good enough to be accepted by others.
Good enough to be affirmed for anything about me or something I could do.
I still struggle, some days, with the fear that I’m not good enough.
A number of years ago, I poured out my angst-y heart to the Lord about my inadequacies, my desire to be significant to someone—anyone—in my world. I knew I was significant to my eleven-month old boy. To my husband. But to anyone else? My feelings convinced me I didn’t matter.
Then God spoke to me. He told me I was significant to Him.
I justified why this wasn’t enough.
I know. Stupid idea. Arrogance and ignorance wrapped into one thought.
He asked me if He was enough for me. The question stopped me cold. If He allowed all my friendships to die, and all I had left was my relationship with Him, was that enough?
Conviction stabbed at me when my initial answer, honestly? was no.
Since that time, I’ve learned to lean on Jesus. to believe what He says about me. To let being His girl be enough for me. And finding incredible satisfaction and peace in this acceptance.
To know and embrace the truth that He loves me perfectly, passionately completely.
And as we head into Easter weekend, we remember the amazing Gift of love Jesus gave us as He hung on a bloody cross. As He took our beatings. As He felt the every thorn of the crown press into His scalp. Blood running down his face, His torso, down to His legs and His toes.
Is that enough for me? For us?
So much more than I deserve. He. Loves. Me. He loves each of us.
And that is Good. And it’s way more than Enough.
We can take that truth, weave it into the fabric of who we are. If we let it, this truth can mend wounds in our hearts and make us clearer reflections of Him to the world around us.
What about you? How have you worked through the question of significance? How has the knowledge that God loves you completely changed you?
Visit Kate Motaung’s Five Minute Friday post—Good.