+Jeanne Takenaka @JeanneTakenaka
Five Minute Friday prompt this week is—CONTROL. This largely unedited “rough draft” form of writing stretches this perfectionist, in the best of ways. I write for five minutes on a given topic. If you’re interested in learning more about 5-Minute Fridays, check out our hostess, Kate Motaung’s site. Or, click on the link at the bottom of this post. As you read my simpler Friday posts, I hope you’ll join in the conversation!
Have I ever mentioned that I might have an issue with control? And the funny thing is, a lot of times, I think God is letting me have control in my daily decisions about how I live life. Yes, you can laugh.
When I was newly married and we’d been “trying” to have a baby, we conceived . . . and lost the child within eleven weeks. I was devastated but convinced if we tried a little longer it would happen.
That was the beginning of my journey into learning how little control I really have.
I prayed, begged, got on my face and cried to God asking for a baby. He wasn’t being capricious or mean by saying, “Not yet.”
He was drawing me closer to Himself.
In that time period, God taught me so much about His sovereignty.
And in His sovereignty, I came to see God’s love for me.
He had plans for conforming me into the image of Jesus that could only be completed as I learned to walk more closely with Him.
As I learned how to trust Him.
And He’s continued with the trust lessons. On this writing journey, I’ve had to drop a lot of my self-sufficiency and my timelines and plans and learn to embrace His.
No, I haven’t always done it gracefully.
As I have learned to relinquish control over things I thought I controlled, I’m learning to walk in a greater peace.
Learning to trust Him with all things—big and small—is one of my life-long lessons.
I am still not perfect in the trust department, but I am slowly learning to turn things over to him more quickly.
As I have struggled with watching friends progress in their writing journeys, and I’ve seemingly stayed in the same place, God’s teaching me how to give each aspect of “my” writing over to Him.
He’s also freeing me from lies I’ve believed all my life. God is helping me to be more real—more authentic—in my writing and in my daily living.
I never would have learned these lessons had He not begun to teach me about Who’s really in control of “my” life.
What about you? What lessons has God taught you about control? How have you come to see His love for you in your life?
I forgot to mention…I had the privilege of visiting with my online friend, Holly Barrett and recording a podcast with her. If you want to hear our conversation, check it out at Living a Redeemed Life.
I’m linking up with Kate Motaung’s Heading Home Five Minute Friday—Control