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Our Five Minute Friday prompt this week is—WHY. This largely unedited “rough draft” form of writing stretches this perfectionist, in the best of ways. We write for five minutes on a given word. If you’re interested in learning more about 5-Minute Fridays, check out the Five Minute Friday website. Or, click on the link at the bottom of this post. As you read my simpler Friday posts, I hope you’ll join in the conversation!
When I saw the word for tonight, an old Point of Grace song came to mind.
I thought about the heartbreak in the news this week of the school shooting in Florida. I’m not sure I’m ready to write about this yet. As I prayed and pondered about what I would share, “Who Am I?” came to mind. It’s comforted me on the roads of heartache.
There are so many questions in my mind, my heart, that begin with Why?
There are times when I wish I had the answers, the capability of understanding the workings and secrets of God.
I don’t understand the why’s of being rejected by my peers as a child and the heartache that season inflicted on me.
I don’t understand why God allowed my husband and me to be unable to bear biological children when teen moms could and aborted. I don’t understand why we walked for years on the infertility road.
This is what I know. There are going to be questions I will never see answered this side of heaven. Just because God may not choose to answer my Whys, doesn’t mean He doesn’t love me, or that He loves me less than others.
When my eyes are wrapped up in the whys of my own life, I am me-focused.
Maybe the better questions to ponder revolve around Him.
Why would He choose to love me, and all the people He’s ever created? Why would He pour out His grace on us, even when we sin against Him and each other? Even when we walk away from Him?
Why would He choose to strengthen His children to walk through this life’s hard with His light shining through us?
One word: LOVE
We may not understand why things happen in our world. They break our hearts. Hurt us to our cores.
We may feel oh, so alone sometimes. Lost.
In those seasons when we ask WHY . . .
. . . we are single
. . . Married to _____
. . . Unemployed
. . . Working in a difficult job
. . . Losing a loved one
. . . Dealing with cancer and illness
. . . Devastated by life’s heartbreaks
Those are the seasons we should be seeking God Himself rather than answers.
Sometimes the answers are beyond our understanding.
But our Father? He is intimately acquainted with us. He loves us. He walks with us in the midst of the hardest seasons. He knows the answers we’re ready for, and the ones we’re not ready for.
Maybe when we want to ask why, we can choose to trust instead, to rest in His love and care for us?
What about you? How do you respond when God offers silence in answer to your Why? When has God given you an answer to your why?
Linking up with Five Minute Friday—WHY