Fear, Hope, Trusting God

Uncertain: When There Are No Easy Answers

@JeanneTakenaka +Jeanne Takenaka

***I wrote this post about a month ago, but everything still holds true.***

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“When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”

It had been about two weeks since the conversation that changed my paradigm. The way I thought our family would grow up and mature and launch two boys into the world as young men, prepared and equipped to take on the challenges of adulting and figuring out who they really are.

Two weeks since I had talked with a person who “loves” my boy-man enough to share the hard truths with me. 

Two weeks of grappling with a possible new reality and not sure what things look like now.

Two weeks of trying to figure out where we go from here. 

Two weeks where Hubs and I have done some talking, lots of praying, and talking with the boy about the observations made about him.

Two weeks that are the first steps of a slightly changed life. A skewed paradigm.

And this hard Thing? 

It’s got me trying not to stay in the place of living as a hot mess. It feels big. Overwhelming. Scary at the amount of change it will require of me.

This Thing draws forth the selfishness in my heart, my thoughts. 

This THING challenges me to evaluate my dreams. To go before God with my questions of “How?” 

“What now?” 

It will demand sacrifice on my part. Dying to myself. 

Seeking God for His timing with everything in my life.

All those things I thought I knew. I thought I had “covered.”

Being in a place of waiting for answers is where worry festers. Or trust blooms.

Some days, worry wins. 

What will this coming year look like?

How will we walk the boy-man through all of it?

Will we find the answers we need to walk through this Thing?

Will I still be able to do the things I enjoy doing, or will my time be consumed with appointments and tasks?

Some days trust wins.
None of this surprises God. Not even the timing of the beginning of this journey.

He is with us.
He is the answer-giver. The Hope-infuser. The Lover of my soul.

And my family.

And my dreams.

I can’t even talk about this Thing with those close to me, because . . . I need to honor my son. 

For a woman who connects through words, who gleans comfort through sharing . . . This. Is. Tough.

But God . . . 

He knows the plans He has for us. Plans to prosper us. Not to harm us. 

Plans for a future. And a hope.

He never, ever promises His plans are easy. But, He always promises to be with us as we walk through those times when disappointment roars in like a tidal wave.

When fear attempts to gain the upper hand.

Sometimes prospering comes through prospering in character, not necessarily in the wallet. Through being conformed and growing into the people God created us to be.

He will not harm us. Yes, hard things happen. Those things we classify as “BAD” can happen. But they will not harm our spirits. We need to remember Who holds us.

He has plans for a future for us. No, that future may not look the way I expected. Probably won’t, in fact. But God has a future for our family. 

For each of His children.

And His plans offer a hope for us. The Giver of Hope has a plan of hope for each of His children.

I don’t know what the coming days, months, years look like for our boy-man. But, this I know. Our amazing, loving Father holds us in the palm of His hand. No matter what hard we are each walking through.

He has a plan for us. Not our plan.

His plan. 

And it is a good plan. Even when it hurts in the present.

For now, in the middle of all my unknown, I choose to cling to the Hope-Giver. The One who holds me—and each of His children—close to His heart. 


I choose to wait in trust on Him. To step where He leads. To hold His hand in the dark places. 

When fear tries to turn my heart away, I will choose to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus. Because He is the only One who can really, truly lead us on the paths of life.

What about you? When you’ve faced uncertain situations, how have you navigated them? What is your favorite Bible verse for those times of uncertainty?

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22 thoughts on “Uncertain: When There Are No Easy Answers”

  1. Thank you for your honesty in sharing, Jeanne. Praying for you and your family to know God with you, directing your steps as you seek the way forward. And for peace. I know that battle between worry and trust well.
    It’s not so much one Bible verse that helps me but a whole story- the story of Joseph. It encourages me that even in a story that seemed such a mess God was always with Joseph and he had a plan to work everything out for good in the end. Praying that for your son too.

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  2. I remember getting THE NEWS about my son 20 years ago now, and it was a time of grieving a dream and making a new one. It’s still a work in progress, and constantly shifting, those dreams. But there’s also a humbleness that came about, a letting go, and lots of learning to move through trials more gracefully. John 16:33 is a go to verse for me. Life is just messy, but He’s overcome this world of ours!

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    1. Lynn, thank you for sharing from your experience. The reminder about letting new dreams for my son take root in my heart is a good one. I try not to plan out my boys’ lives for them, but a mama always has certain hopes, don’t we? And yes, it does seem these are the sorts of trials that nurture humility and teach us how to walk through trials with more grace. And the verse…thanks for sharing that too. 🙂

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  3. Oh Jeanne.

    My heart reaches out to you right now and I’m praying as I tap away. May peace flood your soul, clear your vision, ease your angst. May the truth that God loves your son even more than you do be manna for your soul.

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    1. Linda, thank you for those prayers. It’s such a step-by-step process we’re walking through, fraught with frustration some days. But, I have to trust that God knows the timing for everything and that He is working while I wait. You’re so right. God loves our son even more than we do. Thank you for that!

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  4. Jeanne, I’ve been there, where I want to plug my ears and cover my eyes. No, no, no, no, no. But God always takes care of everything. He just does. He has such a way. I love you. ❤ And I'm praying for your family.

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    1. Shelli, you’re right. God always takes care of everything. None of this has come as a surprise to Him. So, we lean into Him in trust, right? Thank you for your sweet words, and for your prayers. They mean a lot!

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  5. I’m so sorry for your pain, Jeanne. I pray God will strengthen and guide you, your son, and your entire family. That struggle between worry and trust can be so real. Something that helps me lately is to focus on God’s faithful character. He’s got us and all things are in His loving hands that are only out for our good. Also, sometimes when I am especially stressed about a child or grandchild, I gaze at a painting I have of Jesus holding a lamb while I imagine myself placing him/her in His arms and trusting Him to care for them. I am right now placing your boy in Jesus’ arms and begging Him to hold him closely to His heart of love and compassion. With you, I will continue to cling to our Hope-Giver. Love and hugs to you!

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    1. Trudy, thanks so much for your words here. And thank you for your prayers for my boy-man and our family. MUCH appreciated. I love the idea of imaging placing those we love most into the arms of Jesus. I need to remember that visual. I so appreciate you, friend!

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  6. Jeanne, my tattoo on my right wrist: GAKAT, God Already Knows/Knew About This. Nothing too hard. Impossible is His favorite word. His arm is not too short. His ear is not turned away. He already knew. He already has the plan. Keep speaking the Word. Keep believing the Word. Keep Truth above all things. I love you.

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    1. Susan, what a great tattoo. I love that you have the constant reminder that God already knows about each thing going on in your life. I am truly thankful He already knows the way forward from here. He already knew we would encounter this Thing at this time in our boy’s life. We truly do need to set our minds on truth and on His word, don’t we? Thank you for your encouragements and for pointing my eyes toward Jesus. Love you too, friend!

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  7. My husband and I are also going through “Things” with two of our young adult daughters that we never thought we’d be going through. My favorite verse is Proverbs 3:5: “Trust the Lord with all your heart, and don’t depend on your own understanding.” NCV I have to keep reminding myself that nothing takes God by surprise and His ways are not our ways. I choose to trust, and keep on trusting, that He’s got this and, of course, keep praying to keep the fear of the unknown away. My prayers go out to you and your husband as you also walk through the Thing. In our weakness, He is strong.

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    1. Jeanna, I’m sorry you are going through Things too. It’s tough. Proverbs 3:5 is such a great verse. It’s tempting to want to go with the knowledge I have and not wait for God to reveal His wisdom to me as Hubs and I walk through this. Like you, I take great comfort in knowing this hasn’t taken God by surprise. And that His ways are WAY higher than ours. I needed that reminder to day. Thank you for your wisdom and for your prayers. I’m saying a prayer for you today too.

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  8. My heart hurts with yours as you journey through life’s challenges. Life is so messy and beautiful all at the same time. It makes me scratch my head in wonder at the beautiful dichotomy. I am praying for peace to invade your heart, mind, and soul. May you feel God’s strength as you take new steps you didn’t plan.

    I love what Linda said, rest in knowing God loves your son more than you do. He is taking care of things behind the scenes. One of my favorite verses that speaks such deep truth is Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[i] have been called according to his purpose.

    Love and hugs friend!

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    1. So sorry I didn’t comment sooner, Mary. Lots happened this weekend. Including my husband coming home from a business trip, due to circumstances that could not be avoided. 🙂

      I so resonate with what you said about life being messy and beautiful at the same time. I don’t know how God does that. Thank you for your prayers.God is truly strengthening me through the prayers of others.

      And yes, Linda’s words were perfect!

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