Sometimes, we know a change is coming. Other times, it makes its presence known through a simple tumble down a mountainside.
Yes, that would be the change I just encountered. We took the boys skiing recently. I was on my first run of the day, hurrying down ahead of hubby and Edmund, because I needed to exchange my boots.
The boots got exchanged all right . . . for a splint and a sprained knee.
I hadn’t planned to change my week, my speed of going through my days, my pain levels.
Yes, sometimes change finds us unexpectedly.
I’m not going to try and sound pious and say I am embracing it willingly. When I got the MRI results back and discovered I would need surgery to fix the tear in my ACL and partial tear in my meniscus, I cried. And, I ranted a little at boys sporting attitudes because of their own frustrations.
I hadn’t any more right than they to rant, but I was the mama, and they, unfortunately, bore a little more ire than warranted.
Yes, sometimes, I don’t embrace change very well.
As I adjust to the fact that I’m going to be hobbling for a little awhile . . . I’m going to have to go under anesthesia and still do life on the other side . . . I’m discovering that small, unexpected things throw me off.
Change takes time to adapt to. It induces anxiety within most of us. The question is, when change finds us, how will we respond?
In my own strength, I don’t do change well. I don’t like it.
God isn’t so concerned with how much I like or don’t like change, as He is the work He wants to do in my heart through it.
You see, I’ve been praying that He would draw me closer to Himself. I’ve been praying that He would help me live life more authentically. And the way that prayer is answered is by drawing closer to Him.
He has chosen this change in my life to help me want—and need—to draw near to Him.
I know myself well enough to know I won’t weather this change graciously unless I’m leaning hard into Him.
I know this circumstance is smaller, and not as life-altering as what many people face. Even in this, God knows the best way to encourage us to draw closer to Him.
The day after I learned I’d be going under a surgeon’s knife, I found myself so hungry for His word. So in need of music, words that move me into a place where I can worship Him.
To live authentically, I need to be honest with God about how I’m feeling. It’s okay not to like the changes He brings into our lives. But, how will we handle things after we decide we don’t like it?
We can choose to let it make us bitter. We can vent our anger at Him for the injustice of it all.
We can choose to live independently and do things on our terms. This will probably lead back to bitterness.
Or, we can choose to lean hard into Him (in my case literally), and ask Jesus to help us to accept what He knows is best for us in this season.
In the past, I’ve found that when I lean hard into the Lord, I begin to see His fingerprints all over my life. I see how He’s working in my heart. And He often uses others to do this.
Do I like what’s happening?
But I’m praying . . . a lot right now.
I’m asking Him to align my heart with His during this season. And I will come to embrace this change . . . one limping step at a time.
What about you? When have you chafed against a change? How do you come to a place of embracing the changes that have come into your life?