What am I married to?
I mean, yeah, I’m very happily married to my husband of nineteen years. No regrets there.
But, if an outsider were to peek in on my daily living, what might they see as my groom? What do I devote time, attention and emotion to?
Is it busy-ness? That hurry-up, hectic pace that kids and family schedules keep me on?
Is it keeping the house clean?
Nah. Too much dust for that scenario.
What are my heart, my soul, my spirit married to?
I want to be devoted to God. To finding the wonder of Him in my every day. Taking time to marvel at colored leaves, a sunset, glimpses of His fingerprints on my life.
How do I spend my time? What would an outsider see . . . peeking into my life?
I spend time on my computer—reading blogs, and writing. If someone watched me for a day, would they conclude that a screen is where I spend my love?
What does my perspective reveal about my attachments? Am I seeking God—to see life through His lens—or am I glimpsing situations through my own finger-printed focus?
How do I respond when the hard things come? Do I still choose love when someone hurts me . . . repeatedly? Do I love that person like Jesus does because that’s what God asks me to do?
Or do I withdraw in hurt?
When hard things like cancer, heartache, heartbreak and loss come . . . do I lean into God as the leader of our relationship, trusting Him to strengthen me through difficult seasons?
Or do I muscle up and try to deal with it on my own?
What am I married to?
Do I rely on my own strength, my knowledge to get me through each day?
Part of a marriage is depending on and trusting each other. What does my life reveal about me?
As I consider all these questions, I’m challenged to evaluate where my heart is. Like it or not, what comes from my heart reveals what I’m married to—through my words, interactions, decisions and choices.
I fall short in living the life of a bride of Christ many moments of my days. Thankfully, God is patient and quick to forgive when I fail. His mercies are new every morning.
Each morning, I get to choose where I focus my heart. Whether on the circumstances and tasks demanding my attention, or on being sensitive to the Lord’s promptings. When I am still, I often hear His whispers guiding my feet through the day.
When I live humble—when I live with my ears open to His voice—an outsider looking in will see that I am married to Jesus. He is the groom I hope people see when they peek into my life.
What about you? What would someone see as most important to you if they peeked into your life? How do you keep your priorities straight?