What does Chaos look like in your life?
I lived a bit of chaos last week. Hubby was sick with the influenza over the weekend. I cared for the boys while he slept to heal. On our way home from church, the three of us chatted while we sat at a stop light.
Our car was rammed from behind as chaos made its presence known. One boy screamed, the other fought to hold in the tears. I made sure they weren’t hurt. My mind whirred trying to take in too much information at one time.
Then I looked in the mirror. A young woman sat behind the wheel, her eyes teary. Desperation etched into every feature of her face. I walked to her car and asked if she was okay. She said yes, and couldn’t stop saying, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry!”
I called 9-1-1 to report the accident. She called her parents.
When it was safe, we exited the car and dashed to the side of the road. The sun shone brightly, not caring that this collision of vehicles and lives had just occurred.
While we waited for the police to arrive, her parents and I talked. My guys had a spot of brown grass, snow and trees to occupy them, so they seemed okay.
The chaos in my mind eased to a dull buzz in the waiting. The parents and I exchanged information.
They thanked me for being “reasonable.” What do you say to that? I was beyond grateful no one was hurt.
My heart went out to their daughter. The consequences . . . . . the “could have’s” struck her full force. This young woman will live with the after affects of her mistake for a long time.
My hope was to show grace to this young woman and her parents. The main thing was:
No one was hurt.
When the “main thing” is in focus, lesser things take a back seat. Chaos doesn’t have to reign if my thoughts and heart are focused on the main thing.
That night, chaos broke free again as one of the boys became very angry. We walked out a couple difficult hours working through thoughts, feelings, hurts and tears. I suspect the accident triggered the anger.
A few things I learned when chaos enters my life:
1. I don’t always have to be the strong one. Relying on my own strength only goes well for a few minutes. Then I tend to fall apart, one piece at a time. Chaos wears me out. Breaks me down.
It’s in those times I need to lean hard on Jesus. I can’t face it alone.
2. Chaos enters our lives when we least expect it. We need to anticipate how we’ll to deal with it.
Will it be with anger?
Will it be with a sense of defeat?
Will it be by asking Jesus for strength, for grace?
3. When I cling tightly to Him, He gives me what I need in the moment. Each moment.
I need Jesus’ hand holding my own. His touch guiding me through the chaos.
His words filling my thoughts and my mouth.
It’s the only way to get through the chaos in this life.
What about you? What does chaos look like in your life? How do you deal with life when chaos makes an appearance?