So, I’m living out this dream of writing. Characters, alive and breathing in my thoughts, have a tale that pushes from within to be written on the screen before me. Day by day adding their words, happenings, joys, heartbreaks to the pages.
It’s been a trust walk—this story—because I don’t often know what will happen from scene to scene, chapter to chapter. As I’ve shared before, I am a planner by nature, so walking without knowing the next ten moves makes me tremble.
Walking out this dream is a step by step process of depending on God. The Giver of story has shared with me what He knows needs to come next. Last week, I hit silence. I’m stuck on chapter twelve.
No writing for days.
Researching ideas, yes.
But no clear vision of what comes next.
As I read from Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young, one line struck me. She talked about how problems I’m not expecting can distract me from knowing Jesus’ presence in the midst of them.
It reminded me to talk with Him about everything and watch confidently to see what He would do.
That word stopped me hard—“confidently.”
I’ve been praying, asking, seeking. But have I done so with confidence, that God will answer me?
Um, I’m hanging my head. No. I pray because I know God answers prayer. I pray because it’s what I know to do. But, can I be real honest?
I don’t always pray with the confident expectation that He will answer above and beyond what I’m asking.
That He will give of His endless grace and abundant joy to one of His girls.
Confidence is always placed in someone, something. I’ve placed confidence in myself far more often than a clay pot should. I’ve placed it in others and been disappointed, sooner or later.
When I place my confidence in my Maker, something happens. Life doesn’t always get easier. No, sometimes it becomes harder to walk. My answers rarely come right away.
But, when my confidence is in God, my Savior, they do come. And they are the perfect answers.
Even for a story snag. So, I’ll wait, I’ll pray, I’ll ask. In confidence.
What about you? Are you living out a dream, one step at a time? When have you seen God work after you put your confidence in Him?