On a family vacation a few years ago, the boys strapped on roller skates for the first time. Peter, being the adventurer he is, took a few spins around the rink clinging to the wall. Then he was ready to try it without the aid of said wall.
Edmund, our cautious child, likes to be in complete control of himself at all times. Falling is not an option. If he can help it. When he first entered the rink, it was with tiny steps and one hand on the wall at all times. His other usually clutched my hubby’s or my hand.
As Edmund gained confidence in his skills, he stepped a couple paces away from the wall and tried to pick up some speed. He wanted to feel the breeze combing his blonde hair. For some reason, he couldn’t go as fast as he wanted to.
When he turned in his skates, we chatted with the person working behind the counter. After examining the wheels, he discovered that they were very tight, preventing them from rolling quickly. Edmund had complete control over himself, making sure he wouldn’t fall, but he couldn’t speed up when he wanted to.
Sometimes as I live life, I try to control every aspect of it (please note, I did say “try”). Just as Edmund had his motivations for wanting to be in control, so do I. Being out of control scares me. As I think on Edmund’s misadventure, I’m challenged to consider how willing I am to let God loosen the wheels on my life-skates. Can I truly experience the beauty of His leading in my life if I keep a tight grip on the wall? When I try hard not to fall, or have anything “bad” happen to me, I miss out on the freedom of God’s breeze ruffling my hair and filling me with His joy.
When I choose to loosen the wheels on my skates, I will fall sometimes. I may even gain a bruise. But, as I learn to walk (skate) closely with my Father, I can skate a little further away from that “security wall,” trusting Jesus to lead me.
What about you? Have you had an occasion to skate away from the wall, so to speak? Did you do it? What happened?